Bonjour!

School is officially over and I'm overjoyed but I tend to feel like studying. Like it's a guilty conscious not to enjoy my TV and to think about picking up my notes and scribblng things.. Bugger.
Tomorrow I'll be having attachments and I hate to admit this but, I'm looking forward. :) Silly missy. Who knows what lies for me there. *wags eyebrows* hahaha.

So I just fell in love.. Like really.. This could be it. A love of a lifetime... I'll just have to be patient and wait. Till the right time comes where I'll be able to call you mine baby.. Nonono people... It's not a guy. and hell NOT A GIRL. hahaha.. It's a phone. Once I get my KA-CHING on, you'll be all mine baby. I'll even give you a name... Mami's gonna get you..



















Isn't it the most beautiful thing ever??
I fell in love at first sight. Mami' gonna get you darling..
My uncle just had to get it and make me jealous...
It's ok, true love gets united..Someday...Somehow... hahahahhahaa.
What?? a girl can be dramatic...

Punching Bag

I just had a conversation online with a particular someone and for no utter reason, I became the victim. this has been going on for quite awhile right now. I really don't know what is your reason mister but please..I'm clueless as to what made you so cold towards me. I apologise if I've rubbed you the wrong way but fact is, we used to be on good terms before..

School wise, just because I'm the nicer one, people tend to give out orders. I don't pick up your bloody phonecalls or reply to your emails all because I'm too darn stressed out with these bloody goddamned orders. Thank god school is over and soon, I'll be in attachments. I'm glad to be put in a new environment.. I can handle patients but not those hypocrites who simply want to get good names for themselves. Finally, I'm taking my stand and not make everything revolve around other people.

I got together with Sheila & Danial for awhile today. Glad to meet them and share the inevitable laughs. Got to loosen out some uptight knots due to something that made me burst. The past week has been an extremely frustrating one. No wonder my hair is dropping like I'm on chemo.

I feel at my downright lowest now. Foolish, underappreciated and taken advantage of.

Silly Careless Mistakes

Taking a break from studying coz I'm at the point where I'm talking to myself. Haha. This week is a crucial week and the next will be my attachments in Alexandra Hospital where I'll get to meet SN Anis Fitri. Chey2.. Staff Nurse nmpk. Haha.

I made a REALLY dumb careless mistake. Want to know how dumb it is? I thought, confidently, that 3 days consists of 96hours and not 72 hours. Bravo Zima...Bravo. Pandai sangat kan... Calculator ade tknk pakai. Genius! -_______________-
URGHHH.

I bought yet 3 more things from Lavoguish. And I'm one happy mad woman.
Do visit people. 20% sale till the end of Nov.
www.lavoguish.blogspot.com



...in your hands, I lay mesmerized once again...

I feel so lighthearted all of a sudden and I'm amused by my own smiles. It's in the middle of the night, I feel wide awake and VERY happy. Most probably I spent a bit of time going through what's really been bothering me all these while and I've come with a solution; Let it Be. That's right.. let it be. Like what's the point of holding on? Like a grudge, anger, frustration and sorrow? It'll only eat you up inside slowly like a cancerous tumour. Like anger/hatred, I've decided to try to let go of it. Coz I admit that I've been going to your blog and reading to find a simple flaw to bitch about it and all. Truth is, you're human after all..and I've been hitting you verbally all because I'm not learning to let go. So here it is, I'll Let it Be. Just like that.. Let it Be..
To you whom I've been to persistantly hooked onto. I'm letting go of the hooks. I have to learn to let go and Let it Be. Yes, I hate it when I lose control.. When I look at it and see that everything simply won't stay in line like I wanted it to be. But what's the point in that?

I was so loyal to you before.. When I needed the strength to pull through the hardships I went. To a point I felt everything meant doom for me. But now I realise.. that I've neglected you. I came running when I was in pain, when everything seemed so cold. I'm picking up the pieces.. For you deserve everything.. You listened when I cried all those nights alone. You embraced me when I felt like love-less. Right now, I'm coming back. After months I've neglected you, I'm coming back... My one true love.. You've always been looking after me from above. The One I call home. My religion.. My saviour.. God.

Unwritten

Today was simply a super busy day for me. Household chores, editorial work and getting some studying done. I just realised that I've forgotten to do my Pharmacology online quiz yesterday. Dammit. My memory is seriously deteriorating. Like whoah.

So brought the little cuzzins over to Jurong Point to meet up with my aunt. I felt weird coz it was one of the RARE occasions where I tied my hair up. All bcoz I had no time to straightened it. So yeah, I felt so bare...it's hard being a girl. Seriously..
Anyhoos, I had my sinful dinner which ended with an Anderson's ice cream treat. Moonriver was having a $15 storewide sale and I bought myself a mod dress. Gorgeous..! I've always been a slave for shopping so yeah... BAD habits die slow. (or in this case, it'll never)

I'm so tired right now.
Heading off to bed...
See you lovelies tomorrow.

xoxo
The Girl Who Couldn't Care Less.

Lost

My head is throbbing very badly and it sucks that I can't pop pandols into my mouth to relieve it. All because of my stupid allergy. Workload is piling and I feel like giving up and leaving. After this is done, I will coz I feel like my brain and energy is being drained. Up to the extent of falling sick 3 times in 2 weeks.

I'm lost. Where is this heading, where are you leading to. I am just absolutely confused. Like I said, I'm not blaming. It's just that please, tell me what's your decision. It's remotely contradicting and I have this cocktail of emotions. Like are you serious or just fooling around or you're unsure of this yourself. Do voice out to me. At least set the record straight.

I'm tired.
I'm sick.
I'm just plain confused.

Stupid throbbing head.

Photogenic Day

Fell sick, AGAIN. And next week is the major week. Thank you my immune system. You have been great.

So, I decided to post these pictures. Why? Coz Sidah said it was my photogenic day.
Celebrate birthday mahhh..~

Gmbr lawa tk?? Part 1.

She rocks my socks. Plus, she hot....

Gmbr lawa tk?? Part 2.

I love my makcik Sidah.

The awesome background. Toilet rupe2nye.

Senyumm mesti lebbbaaarrr... The food is awesome..

Thank you girls. I love you sooo much!

Wanna know why i LOVE this pic? It shows my calve muscles. Wee~

As you can most probably decipher, I am vain. Very. Vain. Hahaha.

Flirtatious Ways

It's 12.30 am and I am happily typing away on the laptop. Finally, after answering my own questions, I find it utterly amusing. So back to the old games, where blushing and girlish giggles are a part of it. NOT! Girlish giggles.. Phuueeyyy. I rock like camp rock. Nak giggle2 mcm budak miang buat ape?
Waste of my bloody time.
But... After what it seems like eons, I'm back on the game. (yawww) Hahaha. Treating myself to the best annnddddd... after the common tests, I'll spoil myself on movies and bask in the midst of fun. Who knows what else?? *grins to self*

School is killing me mentally and datelines for my articles are screaming out to me. I feel like tearing them apart and shove it up someone's you-know-what. Preferbably, G.Washington Bush.


Right now, when your name appears,
I smile and laugh out loud when you say something remotely hilarious.
But na-uh... Don't make pre-assumptions.

Sickkkkk

When things get out of hand, this is what Sheila Darling and I chat abt:


z i m a; angels says:
eh
z i m a; angels says:
i want a bf
z i m a; angels says:
get me one
z i m a; angels says:
hahah
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
HAHA
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
i want one too
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
i'll be ur bf
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
u'll be mine
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
HAHA!
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
meaning we both be e guy
z i m a; angels says:
alaaa
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
gitu da gay eh.
z i m a; angels says:
i want to be the girl
z i m a; angels says:
pleeaassseee
z i m a; angels says:
then we take turns
z i m a; angels says:
being the guy i mean
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
HAHA I WANT TO BE E GIRL TOO!
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
okok take turns
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
u be guy first ok?
z i m a; angels says:
z i m a; angels says:
ok laaaa
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
okay! u i nk shopping
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
blanje boleh
z i m a; angels says:
boleh...i belikn u fake eyelashes kt chamelon k?
z i m a; angels says:
$1.90
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
i nk face shop
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
nk 10
z i m a; angels says:
-.-
z i m a; angels says:
u nk i mati pe?? i tgh save duit nk masok minang seyy u
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
okla, utk gubahan lah
z i m a; angels says:
ok la...set...
z i m a; angels says:
i nk jam armani eh
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
armani eh. ala pasar malam byk
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
i belikn 20 pn no sweat ah!
z i m a; angels says:
-.-
z i m a; angels says:
cinta u kt i...very obvious sey u
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
obvious kn.. mane nk dpt org mcm i.
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
i la yg sanggup save duit utk 20 armani watch
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
mane nk dpt
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
setiap titik peluh i tu, kerje keras i tu. sume untuk u
z i m a; angels says:
cedebahh..mcm gini ah girl i...
z i m a; angels says:
love u deeeppp2!!! la

Go laugh your heads off. HAHA. Sheila just lovessss to crap and so do I. We rock like camp rock ah. Even with this horrible cough, she makes me laugh like a hyena.

Been falling sick frequently right now. Getting chills, fever and sucky phlegm-filled lungs. Missed school today because of that and slept like a warthog the whole day. I miss being missed. Haha. Whatever. *rolls eyes dramatically*

Kisses and hugs!

I Love You

So, Sidah made it seem like I had ruined the whole surpise get up. I was cursing myself for being such a dweeb. So EVERYONE was putting up a show for example:

Aunt: Hurry up la..I got a roadshow later.
Esah: You knw where are we going? I don't.
Sidah: Nurhazimah Vijaya is a plan ruiner.
Bila: I will be 20mins late.

Being the slow poke that I am, I didn't see anything coming. Sidah, Esah, Bila and I were snapping away with our respective cameras. (which was supposed to be a way to delay time) All of a sudden I saw these group of makciks and pakcik waving at us at the carpark of Sakura. *At this point, I was still a blurr blob*

Self: Is that Abbah?
Sidah: Surprise!!!
Self: HUH?? *smiles like a bafoon*

So there you go..This year has been an absolutely awesome. From friends who celebrated my birthday, to this amazing family who threw me a great surprise. I feel loved fromhead to toe. Aww..

People, if you wish to humour yourself up, visit my cousin's blog, Rash, in my links and watch videos that we recorded. HAHAHA















My VERY adorable bugsy and tweety cake

The girls and a spastic Haleem

Heroes season 5??

Fatin, the Bouncer

Trying to re-live the High School Musical moments

Bloated, Fat and Happy

The 2 boys who lost their way

I'll be there every step of the way as you grow up

What?? I love my pudding..

The AWESOME family who threw an AWESOME surprise

Aisya dah pandai pose seyyy... HAHA. ANTM eh?

My beloved Makcik Esah

Sidah, my 'boys are never worth it Zima' advisor.

To Sidah, Esah and Bila, sorry I ruined your plans. I SERIOUSLY WAS CLUELESS! That is why I love each and every1 of you sooo much. I LOVE MY COUSINS HARDCORE. Why you may ask? Because they simply won't let me have a single frown whenever they are around me. We rock like camp rock! *okay this part I'm sure people are rolling their eyes* So what? I have the greatest family. Losers.

This year has been ultimately amazing. Unlike last year, I fed the monkeys on Rifle Range Road famous amos on my birthday. HAHAHA. You heard that right. I was emo-ing with the monkeys.

It's so hard to be sad with these angels around me. Be it family or friends. You guys simply light up my everydays with sprinkles of sunshine. =)

Sidah, I apologise again. =)

Sinchu Been Goooone~~

So, Rihanna! was great but as usual, artistes tend to appear on stage later than promised and finished earlier than promised. Kudos to Rihanna for her excellent showmanship! The crowd went wild along with her mega hits and I was jumping and singing (more like screaming) along to her songs. The anticipation of seeing the Barbados pop princess paid off, eventhough I was initially pissed because of the late timing. Bumped into Sarah and Ejat after the show. Sarah.. your hair is supeerrrbbb...

Hang around with Mizan because I had a little bit of time waiting for Dahliah. Nice to see you dude~ I like to move it.. move it.. You like to move it..move it... (HAHAHAHA)

After like A YEAR, I met up with my 2 BABYDARLINGS, SHEILA & IZZA! OMG. A YEAR. hahaha. We danced, laughed and 'tickled the throat' while snapping away with my baby c902. I love you guys sooo much. Fridays ok loves? And Sheila, I'm sorry I was late to wish you your birthday. I love you ok? Deep deep in my deeeeeeeeeeppppppesssttttt part of my heart. My gorgeous-tapi-puji-diri-sendiri baby girl. =)

Ultimately, time stopped. It stopped. I blinked. I smiled. In the bus, I couldn't help but let all the thoughts gush out instinctively and I got myself confused. In such a state where there could be two such similar yet distinctively different. Just like danger and safety. I knw which is safe and which is danger. If only there were a neutral, life would seem less complicated I guess? Y es, I've got the ball rolling. I'm letting it off my grasp which used to be so tight and clammy. I'm letting go. Because all these while, I've wanted to be safe. I wanted to be safe till it reaches to a point where it all became a chore. Well, I've seen how it makes one suffer. And hell, I'm not going to end up like that. *Hugs self* Well, that night was my drama night where after such a long time, finally, I let it all out and let it hush me to sleep. I'm back to square one, but that's never a bad thing coz I can finally pick up where I left off, at the crossroads.

Close

I was about to.. but I stopped myself. Acting immaturely is absurd. Even when it hit a point where it all came down to confusion. Then what was the message trying to be sent across? There were instances where it could have simply be read and not be beat around the bushes. The signals seemed so welcoming yet the main idea a whole different aspect. Come on, let's not try to cushion, just get it straight across of your motives. I'd appreciate that much much better. Plus, it saves this cocktail of thoughts I have in my relentless mind. So, from this point on, I'll play your game and I'll get the ball rolling starting from now.

Editorial is simply in a heap of mess right now. Like the shits you get after so much sweat you put in. Gosh. Most probably, the Rihanna's article will be changed to Kylie Minogue instead. So I'll get to see the queen of pop instead. Either way, it's a win-win situation. Dateline is drawing near and articles are hanging still due to so many excuses by others. I'm thinking of going freelance one day and not care too much with a magazine I consider my baby.

*laughs*
It would be kind of amusing to be thinking my sole purpose was something so futile
So don't assume.
You poor poor thing.

19th is GOOOOD....

It was supposed to be a surprise but somehow, I got the feeling that there would be something to expect. So there I was grinning foolishly on the way to Mr Teh Tarik. I enjoyed myself to the fullest with the company of the clique and laughed so hard till my fishball cheeks literally hurt. Thanks to Leia for the cake and drinks. =) And Jijah for the treat. Not forgetting Khai for the surprise eventhough Jijah slipped it out. This 19th was stupendously awesome laa...For the very 1st time I got cake smeared on my face and I kept smelling myself on the way home. ( I smelled delicious. HAHA) I enjoyed the food, the cake and mostly, the people. =)

My practical is this Thurs and so is Rihanna's concert. The date is in 2 more days and we have not even purchased the tickets. -_- How to write a review article like that deyy~ But 1stly, my practical.

I got the reply and they are going to use my story for the next issue of Russell Lee's book. I was elated due to the news and I'm going to get PAID. Oh yeah~~ It pays being a nerd. Literally.

Rumbling Stomach

Forget about what I posted earlier. It was futile.

My stomach is beatboxing right now. Eventhough I've already eaten a few hours ago. My appetite has been increasing and I've not went to the gym this whole week due to my packed schedule. So, the babats are slowly saying hello to my tummy. *pinches stomach... it's tina the talking tummy!* Waves with the babats shaking...~~~

Tomorrow is yet the anticipated editorial meeting. Mostly due to the very much wanted confrontation and politics. :)
Being the clingy one does not help either. So, it's best to always play neutral.

I'm anticipating tomorrow and I don't know why.
My stomach is talking and my mind is rumbling.

Smiles (with my fishball cheeks of course)

Im too lazy to arrange the pictures. Epitome of my 19th!

Awesome 19th

First and foremost, a HUGE Thank You to all those lovely angels who wished me a happy birthday. I was very flattered upon the number of msgs I got this year. Even those whom I've not talked to for eons, wished me. All of them made my day.

My eyes were swollen this morning due to late night wishes and mr i-love-your-eyebrows. =] Overall, it was worth the heavy eyebags I had today. You've made me a very2 happy fishball cheek woman.

To my 2 dearest darlings, Faziellah and Jijah, THANK YOU FOR THE AWESOME DAY!! From the surprise gift to the treat to KBox. We had a blast when it was decided to go to KBox in Clementi during our 3 hour break. My face turned tomato red and I squeeled like a mouse when Faziellah put the necklace around my neck. I was one happy fishball girl! I LOVE you two. My darlings/pyaars.

So coming up,
PICTURESSSSS

Picturessss

Lazy to update so just look.




















I bought myself these babies for my birthday.





















A PINK clock. My aunt bought it for me. It looks cute though.





















Mentel-ing. -_-





















My Gorgeous bestgirlfriend





















The Retarded Birthday boy. Aka the 5day older brother I wish I had. :)















Steamboat over at Danial's.