Blooper

It was all emo at first. But thanks to a certain some1, I got a few laughs while webcam-ing. While waiting for a phonecall, I did some click click click of my own.

All's well in Zeema land. Divalicious...

Happy New Year

With 2008 drawing to an end, the much anticipated wait for a fresh new is just a day away. As much as I would love to look back in the last year, there are parts where I wish to make ammendments. I won't go making all those extravagant resolutions but instead, the parts and parcels of 2008 which I've yet to improve myself on. Funny how it was yesterday when Lily (my awesome hairdresser) called me up to wish me a happy new year, brought up the part about love. She said she'd hook me up with one of her good-looking clients. Haha. Thank you Lily, but like u suggested, this time, I'll get a more permanent guy. ;)

So much about love, inner strength is one other thing. I know I might seem to go through the hoohaas in life without much hassle. This time to make it worthwhile, I'll make the rules now. Funny how it is to say, 'I'm the Ring Leader now'.

2009 is one year where I'll make decisions all over again but one thing is surely a priority which is to embrace myself with love from those I hold close. Friends and especially my beloved family. So till 2009 makes its debut, I'm going to have a rocking sleepover tomorrow. CHEERIO!

Days turn to weeks..
Weeks turn to months..
Months to years.....
Yet those beautiful memories linger so fresh in my mind as if it were yesterday..
Never will I forget the gestures, words nor happiness.
For you were truly my best.

Sometimes in the midst of lonliness, memories flood in..
And I can never get over the fact that I've missed you.
After all these while...

New Moon

My Sony Erisson C902 went dead on me. -.- I think I'm cursed with handphones. I just got it like a few months back and now it's lifeless. Even with my dad's sexy Gold Motorola Razor, the songs in my C902 is the one that I want.. *cries like a whimp*

It's been a long while since I talked to my family over in Scotland and here I am chatting with my baby sisters. Christmas is in 2 days and I bet they're getting heaps of presents. Wish I was there to play in the snow again. (partly coz my 1st experience was a big hoohaa, in a funny way) Hopefully, I'll get to go to Aberdeen after my diploma and who knows? Milan perhaps? *insert big smiley face* I miss you guys...



So, I've been thinking.. There are many future plans I've already laid out. Like my license and after that, a go for my certificate in make-up. There is still one particular, which is writing. I'm not sure how to polish my writing skills to something much more useful. Right now, I'm considering free lance and I've already sent a few writings/articles out. Reader's digest is pending for my next write-up. At least when I've graduated, I'll be geared with so much.. What more, I've slipped the opportunity to get that interview to go to Australia for my attachments. It was rather a last minute recommendation from one of my fav lecturers. -.-

I'm deliriously over the moon and even pluto which cannot even be seen that it's considered not a part of the known planets...Becauseee... I got myself New Moon. Yeap, the continuation of Twilight. Tomorrow hopefully I'll get myself the other 2 books. Nerd-ly delicious....

Zeema the Divaa~

Vain Mama

Bored on a Saturday? I take pictures....

Hahaha..

I'm a sad sad cow...

You change your mind like a girl changes clothes...

So speak correctly.

Coz I know you're no good for me.

Stop wasting my time and kindly go towards the exit. Thank you.

Oh! Just to snap you back to reality, I lied. Yes I did.

Pictures of last weekend:

The Guy Victim

Esah and Imah *hahaha* immitating Korean poses.

Found this in Syarifah's profile. I look so scared. *hahaha*

Pokes Eyes

I love the feeling of having music blasting away in my ears while going out. In a weird way, it gives a reassuring confidence to walk down that street. *strutting her stuff la konon2* hahaha. Usually without it, I'd have my head hung low and stare at the concrete ground.

Met up with Jijah earlier for our theory practise. I passed only at booklet 3 & 4 but it was all good. Plus point went to the cute boy sitting next to me. Major rock bottom hit was, I was looking for a keyboard and a mouse when it was touchscreen. -_- So with the boy looking amused, I flashed a 'kau nk ktawe kt aku eh setan' smile. I'm naively dumb that way.

Took the bus home and I just couldn't wait to get back home and read my book. *im such a nerd that way* Fried some chicken and cleaned the house up..yaadaa yaaddaa yaaddaa...

To my pyaarie, Faziellah, if you happen to read this.. Jijah and I will always be right here for you ok? Just like the times when either of us had hardship.. You were there when I needed a shoulder to cry on. so I won't let you even think you're alone in this. I'll even rob a bank for you.. That's how much I love the both of you guys. =) KARAOKE?? hahahha...

Ignore my previous post. Coz I won't let a small thing mess up my day.

She's the Ring Leader.

Take Control

Just like a cold zephyr, it hits me hard.. I feel like curling up in one corner. Scared. Very, terribly scared. I'm only 19 and it feels like my age has been stretched 10years further. Like I'm 29, and decisions are made without me knowing and time's being rushed. My heart's pounding like never before... I feel like breaking down. Mashed into pieces... Why didn't I forsee this? I'm 19.... Just 19...

Come take me away...
To somewhere safe. Please.

Boy, Oh Boy...

I'm seriously amused by the aunts' reactions. I have no objections though.. For the past choices I've made have been hands down, how do I put it... inappropriate. Proves these 'fairygodparents' want to work their magic.. But still, I'll have the last say...

I've already applied for my license and BTT's up next month. Going over for the classes tomorrow with my pyaarie, Jijah... Miss her like HOOHAA. hahahha...

Going over to be the babysitter.. here we go again~

Make It Real For Me

So, here are the holidays and all I'm booked for is a karaoke session with my beloved cousins. Speaking of which,I met them during the weekends and it was fun. Laughed eventhough my cough and asthma was still bad. Negativity aside, I had loads of fun swinging my hair and being 'miang' with the girls. Hahaha. Jabbar must've enjoyed to be surrounded by a circle of girls. Lucky you.

Shopped at Esprit in Vivo after that.. Bumped into my meenachi Ushalini there. Been bumping into her quite often these days, not that I'm complaining of course. I've always thought of her as one of the pretty girls. :) Bought a jacket, top and wallet which of course burned my ka-ching in the bank account. That was the day I forgo to even grimaceat the sight of the numbers on the price tag. Once a year eyy? Uhuh~~~ Met my lovely, Aqil, too! That air or immaculate innocence simply throws me off my balance. Truly, he makes the littlest things seem so extravagant. Like I said, he means the world.

Been watching Britnet Spears's documentary and I've been her loyal fan since the age of nine. That counts as a decade now. In every hardship, she's always made a poised comeback. I don't mean those 'Queen drinking tea' kind of poise, but rather a kind of confidence that exudes such inspiration. She's gone through hell and back, but still Ms Britney is up on her 2 strong feet. Hats off to you Ms Britney.

I feel like going to somewhere isolated and bare... Just to talk and clear some mind space.. So anyone out there who knows a good location, do bring me there. And just be my friend to listen...

You, out there...
Please make it real for me....

I am so psyched coz I'll be having a reunion with this lovely ladies who I call cousins. Truly they make my life filled with sunshine rays when the earth suddenly decides to take its toll on me. I LOVE you guys...

Hari Raya Haji Prayers at Masjid Ahmad. The calmness and serenity was a bliss...

Zeeemmaaaa and telekonggg.. with PINK flowers. Shocking? Especially the PINK. ;)

Sheikh Aqil Ferranto. HAHAHA. (ignore the sheikh)

You can't blame mefor loving this cute boy too much. He means the world.

Oh and this adorable one? Ilman Yaqin is the name.

Mama, I got a needle stick injury... Look at that pouty face. Menyampah. HAHAHA.

I tend to get selfish with the things bought from my mom. Like even my PINK-flowered telekong. I get all fussed up. I just want them to be between me and Mama. I love you, you WONDERFUL woman...

Like Mom

I can make a rough conclusion that my body immune system sucks big time. Hah. Fell sick once again when I've just recovered a few weeks back. My aunt claims that I sound exactly like my Mama with my 'blocked-nose' voice. I'll take that as a compliment anyhow. I was feeling like taking an MC today from attachments but decided working on a Saturday is not worth the 1 day luxury. So mask-ed day it was for me. Tomorrow will be the last day and I'm ecstatic over my 3 week holiday!

Bumped into Din yesterday on the bus and it was nice to see an old classmate. Looking good though. Hahaha.. Sheila, better not tell him eh...Went home with Mizan during one of my night shifts since he was in Queensway and updated each other on random stuffs. I still owe that bugger a day out and movies. :S My friend who blackmails. Hah.

I dreamt about you yesterday and it was nice to see you again, even in a dream. It seemed both realistic and surreal but it was nice. To actually have you around even for awhile and not let time take charge. To deny all that I know that is true.. Even for that short period, I was on cloud 9.

Hari Raya Haji =)

I miss my BestGirlFriend

Her Lazy Morning

I woke up feeling VERY lazy to even get off my bed and pulled my loved blanket over my head wishing the time would just stop and let me sleep longer. (eventhough I've already had the luxurious 12 hours in zeemaland) I'm still in my PJs(teddy bear summore) and I'm very reluctant to go for my attachment. I seemed very positive a few days back but then after reality hit my head with a buffalo. 8 hours of standing.. 0_0 The patients I love but the standing I hate.. I had this pictured in my head while I was in primary school... that the future will have this device where we'd all have this 'transportation device' where no walking is to be done only hovering with this particular device.. I was full of imagination and still am. I'm a kid at heart. VERY much still. :)

Oh well..time to get ready and pamper my feet before their torture later on. I'm sorry babies, mami's gotta work. AND shed some pounds. haha. Crazy diet... Ergh..

You're immaculately suave.. And it's gotten my attention. ;)

*smirks*

If the feet could talk, they would be screaming right now. Attachments has got my feet all achy and blister-y. Gosh. Up to the extent I got myself a new pair of converse sneakers to replace my useless crocs. (and supposedly the crocs cost more) Anyhows, the past 2 days in the ward is bearable although the people could be a bit more welcoming. *rolls eyes* Whatever, the patients are so cute and they simply make it worth the constant sighing and sarcastic comments from some people. But the patients aren't the only ones who are cute... *grins*


Being infatuated doesn't necessary mean anything, but it sure builds up that fluttery feeling in the pit of the stomach. Nope, this is temporary and I sure do mean it coz having something serious is not on the agenda right now. Still, the eyes tend to look while the mind goes drooling. Haha.. Especially my Twilight leading man. Gosh he's one hot vampire. It's like his eyes simply gets the corner of my mouth curving up and I wish to have him so much. haha. I've always digged stars who play as vamps.



















Robert Pattinson. You're a hottie.

Bonjour!

School is officially over and I'm overjoyed but I tend to feel like studying. Like it's a guilty conscious not to enjoy my TV and to think about picking up my notes and scribblng things.. Bugger.
Tomorrow I'll be having attachments and I hate to admit this but, I'm looking forward. :) Silly missy. Who knows what lies for me there. *wags eyebrows* hahaha.

So I just fell in love.. Like really.. This could be it. A love of a lifetime... I'll just have to be patient and wait. Till the right time comes where I'll be able to call you mine baby.. Nonono people... It's not a guy. and hell NOT A GIRL. hahaha.. It's a phone. Once I get my KA-CHING on, you'll be all mine baby. I'll even give you a name... Mami's gonna get you..



















Isn't it the most beautiful thing ever??
I fell in love at first sight. Mami' gonna get you darling..
My uncle just had to get it and make me jealous...
It's ok, true love gets united..Someday...Somehow... hahahahhahaa.
What?? a girl can be dramatic...

Punching Bag

I just had a conversation online with a particular someone and for no utter reason, I became the victim. this has been going on for quite awhile right now. I really don't know what is your reason mister but please..I'm clueless as to what made you so cold towards me. I apologise if I've rubbed you the wrong way but fact is, we used to be on good terms before..

School wise, just because I'm the nicer one, people tend to give out orders. I don't pick up your bloody phonecalls or reply to your emails all because I'm too darn stressed out with these bloody goddamned orders. Thank god school is over and soon, I'll be in attachments. I'm glad to be put in a new environment.. I can handle patients but not those hypocrites who simply want to get good names for themselves. Finally, I'm taking my stand and not make everything revolve around other people.

I got together with Sheila & Danial for awhile today. Glad to meet them and share the inevitable laughs. Got to loosen out some uptight knots due to something that made me burst. The past week has been an extremely frustrating one. No wonder my hair is dropping like I'm on chemo.

I feel at my downright lowest now. Foolish, underappreciated and taken advantage of.

Silly Careless Mistakes

Taking a break from studying coz I'm at the point where I'm talking to myself. Haha. This week is a crucial week and the next will be my attachments in Alexandra Hospital where I'll get to meet SN Anis Fitri. Chey2.. Staff Nurse nmpk. Haha.

I made a REALLY dumb careless mistake. Want to know how dumb it is? I thought, confidently, that 3 days consists of 96hours and not 72 hours. Bravo Zima...Bravo. Pandai sangat kan... Calculator ade tknk pakai. Genius! -_______________-
URGHHH.

I bought yet 3 more things from Lavoguish. And I'm one happy mad woman.
Do visit people. 20% sale till the end of Nov.
www.lavoguish.blogspot.com



...in your hands, I lay mesmerized once again...

I feel so lighthearted all of a sudden and I'm amused by my own smiles. It's in the middle of the night, I feel wide awake and VERY happy. Most probably I spent a bit of time going through what's really been bothering me all these while and I've come with a solution; Let it Be. That's right.. let it be. Like what's the point of holding on? Like a grudge, anger, frustration and sorrow? It'll only eat you up inside slowly like a cancerous tumour. Like anger/hatred, I've decided to try to let go of it. Coz I admit that I've been going to your blog and reading to find a simple flaw to bitch about it and all. Truth is, you're human after all..and I've been hitting you verbally all because I'm not learning to let go. So here it is, I'll Let it Be. Just like that.. Let it Be..
To you whom I've been to persistantly hooked onto. I'm letting go of the hooks. I have to learn to let go and Let it Be. Yes, I hate it when I lose control.. When I look at it and see that everything simply won't stay in line like I wanted it to be. But what's the point in that?

I was so loyal to you before.. When I needed the strength to pull through the hardships I went. To a point I felt everything meant doom for me. But now I realise.. that I've neglected you. I came running when I was in pain, when everything seemed so cold. I'm picking up the pieces.. For you deserve everything.. You listened when I cried all those nights alone. You embraced me when I felt like love-less. Right now, I'm coming back. After months I've neglected you, I'm coming back... My one true love.. You've always been looking after me from above. The One I call home. My religion.. My saviour.. God.

Unwritten

Today was simply a super busy day for me. Household chores, editorial work and getting some studying done. I just realised that I've forgotten to do my Pharmacology online quiz yesterday. Dammit. My memory is seriously deteriorating. Like whoah.

So brought the little cuzzins over to Jurong Point to meet up with my aunt. I felt weird coz it was one of the RARE occasions where I tied my hair up. All bcoz I had no time to straightened it. So yeah, I felt so bare...it's hard being a girl. Seriously..
Anyhoos, I had my sinful dinner which ended with an Anderson's ice cream treat. Moonriver was having a $15 storewide sale and I bought myself a mod dress. Gorgeous..! I've always been a slave for shopping so yeah... BAD habits die slow. (or in this case, it'll never)

I'm so tired right now.
Heading off to bed...
See you lovelies tomorrow.

xoxo
The Girl Who Couldn't Care Less.

Lost

My head is throbbing very badly and it sucks that I can't pop pandols into my mouth to relieve it. All because of my stupid allergy. Workload is piling and I feel like giving up and leaving. After this is done, I will coz I feel like my brain and energy is being drained. Up to the extent of falling sick 3 times in 2 weeks.

I'm lost. Where is this heading, where are you leading to. I am just absolutely confused. Like I said, I'm not blaming. It's just that please, tell me what's your decision. It's remotely contradicting and I have this cocktail of emotions. Like are you serious or just fooling around or you're unsure of this yourself. Do voice out to me. At least set the record straight.

I'm tired.
I'm sick.
I'm just plain confused.

Stupid throbbing head.

Photogenic Day

Fell sick, AGAIN. And next week is the major week. Thank you my immune system. You have been great.

So, I decided to post these pictures. Why? Coz Sidah said it was my photogenic day.
Celebrate birthday mahhh..~

Gmbr lawa tk?? Part 1.

She rocks my socks. Plus, she hot....

Gmbr lawa tk?? Part 2.

I love my makcik Sidah.

The awesome background. Toilet rupe2nye.

Senyumm mesti lebbbaaarrr... The food is awesome..

Thank you girls. I love you sooo much!

Wanna know why i LOVE this pic? It shows my calve muscles. Wee~

As you can most probably decipher, I am vain. Very. Vain. Hahaha.

Flirtatious Ways

It's 12.30 am and I am happily typing away on the laptop. Finally, after answering my own questions, I find it utterly amusing. So back to the old games, where blushing and girlish giggles are a part of it. NOT! Girlish giggles.. Phuueeyyy. I rock like camp rock. Nak giggle2 mcm budak miang buat ape?
Waste of my bloody time.
But... After what it seems like eons, I'm back on the game. (yawww) Hahaha. Treating myself to the best annnddddd... after the common tests, I'll spoil myself on movies and bask in the midst of fun. Who knows what else?? *grins to self*

School is killing me mentally and datelines for my articles are screaming out to me. I feel like tearing them apart and shove it up someone's you-know-what. Preferbably, G.Washington Bush.


Right now, when your name appears,
I smile and laugh out loud when you say something remotely hilarious.
But na-uh... Don't make pre-assumptions.

Sickkkkk

When things get out of hand, this is what Sheila Darling and I chat abt:


z i m a; angels says:
eh
z i m a; angels says:
i want a bf
z i m a; angels says:
get me one
z i m a; angels says:
hahah
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
HAHA
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
i want one too
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
i'll be ur bf
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
u'll be mine
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
HAHA!
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
meaning we both be e guy
z i m a; angels says:
alaaa
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
gitu da gay eh.
z i m a; angels says:
i want to be the girl
z i m a; angels says:
pleeaassseee
z i m a; angels says:
then we take turns
z i m a; angels says:
being the guy i mean
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
HAHA I WANT TO BE E GIRL TOO!
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
okok take turns
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
u be guy first ok?
z i m a; angels says:
z i m a; angels says:
ok laaaa
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
okay! u i nk shopping
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
blanje boleh
z i m a; angels says:
boleh...i belikn u fake eyelashes kt chamelon k?
z i m a; angels says:
$1.90
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
i nk face shop
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
nk 10
z i m a; angels says:
-.-
z i m a; angels says:
u nk i mati pe?? i tgh save duit nk masok minang seyy u
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
okla, utk gubahan lah
z i m a; angels says:
ok la...set...
z i m a; angels says:
i nk jam armani eh
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
armani eh. ala pasar malam byk
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
i belikn 20 pn no sweat ah!
z i m a; angels says:
-.-
z i m a; angels says:
cinta u kt i...very obvious sey u
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
obvious kn.. mane nk dpt org mcm i.
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
i la yg sanggup save duit utk 20 armani watch
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
mane nk dpt
[c=77][b]sheila.[/b][/c] says:
setiap titik peluh i tu, kerje keras i tu. sume untuk u
z i m a; angels says:
cedebahh..mcm gini ah girl i...
z i m a; angels says:
love u deeeppp2!!! la

Go laugh your heads off. HAHA. Sheila just lovessss to crap and so do I. We rock like camp rock ah. Even with this horrible cough, she makes me laugh like a hyena.

Been falling sick frequently right now. Getting chills, fever and sucky phlegm-filled lungs. Missed school today because of that and slept like a warthog the whole day. I miss being missed. Haha. Whatever. *rolls eyes dramatically*

Kisses and hugs!

I Love You

So, Sidah made it seem like I had ruined the whole surpise get up. I was cursing myself for being such a dweeb. So EVERYONE was putting up a show for example:

Aunt: Hurry up la..I got a roadshow later.
Esah: You knw where are we going? I don't.
Sidah: Nurhazimah Vijaya is a plan ruiner.
Bila: I will be 20mins late.

Being the slow poke that I am, I didn't see anything coming. Sidah, Esah, Bila and I were snapping away with our respective cameras. (which was supposed to be a way to delay time) All of a sudden I saw these group of makciks and pakcik waving at us at the carpark of Sakura. *At this point, I was still a blurr blob*

Self: Is that Abbah?
Sidah: Surprise!!!
Self: HUH?? *smiles like a bafoon*

So there you go..This year has been an absolutely awesome. From friends who celebrated my birthday, to this amazing family who threw me a great surprise. I feel loved fromhead to toe. Aww..

People, if you wish to humour yourself up, visit my cousin's blog, Rash, in my links and watch videos that we recorded. HAHAHA















My VERY adorable bugsy and tweety cake

The girls and a spastic Haleem

Heroes season 5??

Fatin, the Bouncer

Trying to re-live the High School Musical moments

Bloated, Fat and Happy

The 2 boys who lost their way

I'll be there every step of the way as you grow up

What?? I love my pudding..

The AWESOME family who threw an AWESOME surprise

Aisya dah pandai pose seyyy... HAHA. ANTM eh?

My beloved Makcik Esah

Sidah, my 'boys are never worth it Zima' advisor.

To Sidah, Esah and Bila, sorry I ruined your plans. I SERIOUSLY WAS CLUELESS! That is why I love each and every1 of you sooo much. I LOVE MY COUSINS HARDCORE. Why you may ask? Because they simply won't let me have a single frown whenever they are around me. We rock like camp rock! *okay this part I'm sure people are rolling their eyes* So what? I have the greatest family. Losers.

This year has been ultimately amazing. Unlike last year, I fed the monkeys on Rifle Range Road famous amos on my birthday. HAHAHA. You heard that right. I was emo-ing with the monkeys.

It's so hard to be sad with these angels around me. Be it family or friends. You guys simply light up my everydays with sprinkles of sunshine. =)

Sidah, I apologise again. =)

Sinchu Been Goooone~~

So, Rihanna! was great but as usual, artistes tend to appear on stage later than promised and finished earlier than promised. Kudos to Rihanna for her excellent showmanship! The crowd went wild along with her mega hits and I was jumping and singing (more like screaming) along to her songs. The anticipation of seeing the Barbados pop princess paid off, eventhough I was initially pissed because of the late timing. Bumped into Sarah and Ejat after the show. Sarah.. your hair is supeerrrbbb...

Hang around with Mizan because I had a little bit of time waiting for Dahliah. Nice to see you dude~ I like to move it.. move it.. You like to move it..move it... (HAHAHAHA)

After like A YEAR, I met up with my 2 BABYDARLINGS, SHEILA & IZZA! OMG. A YEAR. hahaha. We danced, laughed and 'tickled the throat' while snapping away with my baby c902. I love you guys sooo much. Fridays ok loves? And Sheila, I'm sorry I was late to wish you your birthday. I love you ok? Deep deep in my deeeeeeeeeeppppppesssttttt part of my heart. My gorgeous-tapi-puji-diri-sendiri baby girl. =)

Ultimately, time stopped. It stopped. I blinked. I smiled. In the bus, I couldn't help but let all the thoughts gush out instinctively and I got myself confused. In such a state where there could be two such similar yet distinctively different. Just like danger and safety. I knw which is safe and which is danger. If only there were a neutral, life would seem less complicated I guess? Y es, I've got the ball rolling. I'm letting it off my grasp which used to be so tight and clammy. I'm letting go. Because all these while, I've wanted to be safe. I wanted to be safe till it reaches to a point where it all became a chore. Well, I've seen how it makes one suffer. And hell, I'm not going to end up like that. *Hugs self* Well, that night was my drama night where after such a long time, finally, I let it all out and let it hush me to sleep. I'm back to square one, but that's never a bad thing coz I can finally pick up where I left off, at the crossroads.