DumbWit

Now2, tell me why did I even bother in the first place? When honestly, you weren't worth a speck of my time, didn't appreciate my sacrifices, heartless and a scumbag? I guess my mind was playing tricks on me and got myself tangled up in a mess.

Anyhoots, this girl passed her BTT and it proves that BBDC is a place where I get a heap of embarrassment. (in front of cute guys summore) Guess she'll be driving in no time. :) HAHA.



I dreamt of you..
And boy, I wish it were true.

It's You

Yesterday I met up with my darling Sheila Weila and we had plenty of catching up to do. Especially about boys. :) Currently we both are in the same boat where it seems like Mr Right is far from being visible and that some are plainly put, a turnoff. Even so, I had tummy aches from laughing too much and I was deliriously over the clouds making our 'video'. From having old pakciks staring to people frequently obstructing our 'masterpiece'.. I was glad that I called you up when my class got cancelled! Coz babygirl, you made my day! Pictures please.. And especially the *ehem*angelic*ehem* ones. HAHAHA. Since secondary school, you were the greatest. Want to knw why? Let me refresh ur memory... A girl with a hideous hairdo, fierce face and loop-ed earrings (ME) asked you to be her partner in a game. (Well, with how the tone of my voice was and my no-smile face, it was more of a threat) And you being the sweet and timid girl, agreed coz honey, you were terrified. HAHAHA. I looked more like a bouncer than a girl back then. Oh! Not forgetting, my 1 bunch fringe. I was one hell of a looker eyy...? HAHAHA. Tuu pon, ade orang nk jugak.. :)

I Love You Norsheila Rais.
From 1E3 to Mercu to being a great girlfriend throughout... :)
And though I don't say this to you face, I think you're gorgeous la!!!
AKU JEALOUS YOU! hahaha..




It was surprising..
that I missed you. After trying so hard to forget, I couldn't forget the first day we met,
to the way our fingers entwined and how easy it was for me to call you mine..
If only we were stronger.. It would have last..

Pyaarie, I love you. :)

To have someone you hold so dearly taken away is never an easy thing. Especially when I got the news that Jijah's dad had passed away. My respect goes to her family and herself for being extremely strong eventhough deep inside, only God knows how they were coping. Truth be told, I wouldn't know how dradtic I would react if I were in their shoes. So my highest respect goes to them, hands down. Seeing my babygirl in such a state was heart wrenching.. Being tired emotionally and physically.. My deepest condolences goes to you and your family darling. I reassure you if there are any ways you need help, there are friends here.. We're just a call away.

I heard your voice today.. and honestly, speaking that way to me isn't very reassuring that you've changed. That you're the same guy I knew and despise since 9 years ago. Go away..

Just so you know, it's back to black now.

Nurhazimah

Met up with Jijah after school and I'm glad she's fine now. With what's she's facing, I was worried my pyaarie would be in a much unfortunate state. But alhamdulillah, she's ok. Ayah fetched Faz, Jijah and myself from school to have lunch. It wasn't that surprising that he clicked well with the pyaaries of mine. Sometimes I think he's my brother coz he acts like me at times. From being loud and making lame jokes, I can see where I get those genes from. :)
After which, we proceeded to NUH to visit Jijah's dad. The moment I stepped into the room, the mood took a 180degree turn. Seeing Jijah talking to her dad, even when he wasn't conscious, made my heart clench tight. I held back the tears and wondering it must've been much harder for this pyaarie of mine. There I was imagining my dad who was standing right next to me, to be the one on the bed, made me want to reach out to Jijah and just cry. Be strong darling, and don't worry about school too much. Faz and I will do our very best in order to help you catch up with school. We both love you very much, seriously. :) You're the oldest but the both of us just feel very protective over you and we want you to be happy. You're a gem.. And I'll be taking good care of this particular gem of mine..


MIC Lab. Multi tasking between RNA dupliaction & taking photos. =)


We were checking ourselves out when the lift door opened and there were cute guys in it. :o


My 19th Birthday.. The best year ever!
From the beginning till the end, I never stop loving..

I feel absolutely guilty when Ayah said 'Eventhough she's my daughter, I rarely get to see her.' while chatting away with my pyaaries earlier. True enough, the both of us are always busy that it had been 2weeks since we saw wach other. No matter what, I still love you.. And there's no limit to that.

Today a particular voice inside spoke out and call it my alter ego.. It was trying to tell me that I got to do more thinking and not have those instances where I do foolish acts and regret them later. The alter ego was seriously taking a pity toll on coz I was foolish enough be taken advantage of. I am not the type to be the rebound neither am I the type to get played around. So if that is never in your agenda to start with, I think it's time to make myself a stronger and more wise woman than I already am. So if toying around is your thing, that's the huge thing that sets us apart.

2009,
Let's make this a year to improve.
& like I promised my aunt, I'll learn to be more honest.
To others, and to myself.

Constant

Lately I've been bumping into the old flames of mine which just makes me laugh and regret at my foolish instances in the past. Say it's fate or whatever but the coincidences have been consecutive. This morning bumped into one of the ex and had abit of catching up. Still gunned with that gorgeous smile, I couldn't help but blush. (just like how I did during high school) HAHAHA. Exchanged numbers and well, so far so good.

Met up with a friend and we hit it off surprisingly. Even it was the first time, I wasn't the shy red faced girl but instead my voiced echoed throughout the area. *Very demuring, I know* Cracked some lame jokes and shared some stories which were amusing.

Nothing's fair in love and war. Which is exactly the perfect reason to just sit back and let the heart do the work. Coz seriously right now, the 4th of July fireworks aren't appearing. Slowly, I'm learning to enjoy being free.

Enough

Where are you? My Saviour?


For 2 consecutive nights, I've dreamt of you. It's not what I'll regard as a positive one because I truly despise you. Very very much. It's etched in too deep and you were simply the trigger, the cause of all this. Like what my friend calls you, Yahudi Gila. HAHAHA. Go figure out yourselves.

I got my baby back! I'm referring to my C902 of course. It's back in puurrfect condition and mama's gonna take care of you. HAHA. Had Jijah accompany me and headed down to IMM for our lunch before I headed back to school for my classes.
Went back with Faz and as usual crapped all the way back home. The one who never fails to make me laugh till my eyeballs pop out.

I feel so excited and I don't even know what the hell for. Perhaps after a long while, it feels good to get the looky-looky. HAHAHA. Crap. Even with no make up on. Well...girls will be girls. And girls just wanna have funnnn...




Azie sayang nenek... =)

SO????

School needed a bit of adjusting and brain wiring after 3 weeks of holiday. My 1st lecture was luckily a revision because my brain was turned off and I honestly felt lost in my own world. Time seems to pass by me so quickly that I'm all jittery as exams are only 5 weeks away and poof! 3rd year here I come. 6 months of attachments, come embrace me! 0,0 I seriously feel like telling Mr-Time-Control to stop the time from ticking and let me catch up. Sooner than I'll know, I'll be graduating and working in POH TECK HUAT.

An inside joke with my fellow friends, if we were to take a taxi to go to work and POH TECK HUAT isn't well known yet,

ME:Uncle, POH TECK HUAT please.

Taxi Driver: WHAT??

ME: POH TECK HUAT please

Taxi Driver: Go take what??? Go where?

ME: Nononono... POH TECK HUAT

Taxi Driver: You go out!! I'm a taxi driver.. not your PA. Ask me go take what some more..

HAHAHAHA.
This is some of the silly antiques my frens and I come up with during our attachments.. -_-"
So much for PASSION TO TOUCH LIVES.

Now2... Playing with fire knowing that the ultimate outcome is to get burnt is exactly why I'm toying around with it. But the good thing is, no longer does it hurt. No longer does the questions linger. No longer do I care what the hell is in your mind. Coz I no longer care.. I do care about how you're doing generally but I don't care of what you perceive me as. Coz truly, it hurt like hell in the past.. Now I just laugh it off as if it no longer matters. Like I said, RingLeader. I have the fun.... You just sit in the seats to watch me have the fun.







U knw I love you..I always will...


This is fun~



Free like a butterfly



Happy Nampakkkk



See what I mean??







I rock it good~

Lazed up

They talked in excitement while I tried to stray afar. They seemed so happy while mostly I felt fear. They talked about childhood, I had disastrous flashbacks. The fear and hate is so extreme I feel as though I can literally hold a knife to your throat and made you wish you were never coming.

I don't knw what's happening to you. Hopefully you'll tell me what's up coz you're truly my best bud and it sucks to see you like this.
And to ____, I've been checking up on you once in a while. I hope you're ok and that you'll always be a part of my prayers.

At least I'm felling better on my part. Guilty as it is, I'm enjoying every single bit of the drama and attention. Coz hun, it's been a while.

Girl-ish

Im laughing at my own new blogskin right now. It's all coz it's all reddish-pink which totally isn't me. My cuzzin suggested to change to something different from my usual monochrome shades. Looking at the flower pattern, I've never felt so girlish my entire life. Hah!

The sleepover was awesome. The girls got a get together session and the main topic was of course; BOYS. Mostly a negative response from all four of us. Made the blooper video again and this time, I ended looking like a mofo.

Went out with Rash and Hanafi yesterday which turned out great. The main idea was to look for my books which were sold out in most bookstores (or even islandwide). Headed down to Marina Barrage and laughed my way through. With the splashing fountains and endless rants.. My favourite part was when we had ice cream. I laughed so hard and ate too much. Butthe waffles were sinful and so was Hanafi's lake michigan made from chocolate.


Starting 2009 with a Bang, hopefully...

BABY SISTER

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY SISTER!!!
NURATIQAH I LOVE YOU!

Hope you enjoyed turning 17. Coz your Kakak here can't believe my baby sister's growing!

hahaha..

Will update soon loves~