Officially missing you

I just love this song.. Especially how Rin on the Rox carries it.
& probably coz I'm officially missing you. :)

Unpredictable

I've just got to know that you've left. & I keep thinking back, we've just met yesterday.. I've known you since I was a little girl and you'd always bring me your home made kuihs. I'd call you 'nenek with the white jubah with gold chains around her neck'. How time flies..

I pray that you'll be happy wherever you are.
& I'm sure you're beaming up there, close to God.

Selamat Hari Raya

Selamat Hari Raya to all Muslims! This year I'm not as anticipated for the festive season as I've been the previous years. Probably it's due to the fact I'm growing older and soon, it'll be my turn to be the one handing out green packets to the non-working ones. :S Anyhoos, I'll like to take this opportunity to seek for forgiveness to those I've done any wrong doings to. (Not on purpose, that is) Hope you guys have a lovely Raya. To my family in Aberdeen, I love n miss you guys deeply.. Selamat Hari Raya.. Azie ingin pohon maaf atas kesalahan2 Azie.. Moga hari istimewa ini membawa lebih kebahagiaan bagi kami sekeluarga. :) (I knw...I sound so baku.) Iqah I promise to post your contacts soon. Kakak has been extremely busy sayang.. Love you guys!

Attachments has been fun! & it was a sad departure from Ward 11. I seriously love the staff and even the patients. Even when the patient has AMS and I've gotten kicks from this mentally disturbed amahs. I've been using a hell lot of muscle during this attachment (& I've been fasting!) Wrestling and pinning people down is hard labour. :)


& I will always love you...
My darling you...

Ive always loved this song. & the movie, The Bodyguard.

Diagnosis: Affection

After months, I thought I had lost my kitten for good. Imagine my surprise when I saw her back home all big and I think, pregnant. 0.0 I felt like an old maid talking to a cat about running away frm home and returning back home pregnant, when the guy doesnt even bother. Then my little cousin came up to me and said 'She's a cat... cats dont have husbands..' I looked at him, annoyed at first and then I was in a laughing fit. Plus, the cat was sleeping all along while I was nagging away about being gatal.

So now I have 2 cats and the other one seems to be jealous. I keep reminding them that they are twins except probably the other 1 is jealous coz the sister's a mum-to-be. :)

So my day starts off the same eversince 2 days ago where I'll rush to ward 12,bed 14.
6.30AM, 12PM and 3PM. Tomorrow will be different though. Probably my dearest patient will be discharged. :) Ure one hell of a pampered patient. Hahaha..


Diagnosis: Euphoric sensations related to emotional attachment.

:)

Surrender

It was a random question regarding 2 years ago. A simple and innocent question but I found it hard to answer coz it made such a huge impact and it does affect me till now. I sat staring back at the screen and my mind went back to the exact moment where I felt I made such a huge mistake till it drove me to the deepest depths of sorrow. Back when even my closest friends said I was like a walking zombie and broke down and shattered with no warning. That was probably the darkest moment so far. I wouldn't talk much and it felt painful, even, to try to recollect myself.
Then, I let you help me find myself and pick up those pieces which I thought were lost forever. At first, it was just a temporary phase but I guess you've grown in me. It's a wonder why till now it's hard to loosen the grip. & in the end, it's my lost. & in the end, I'm left sitting,waiting, with 2 screens looking back at me...bare.

Time Check 2

I've just finished watching a Hindustan movie & been crying my eyeballs out.


So much for entertainment.


Time Check: 4.01AM
@ least I knw You're fine.
Get Well Soon.

Timechecks

Time check: 11.58PM
Waiting online.


Now now, attachment doesn't seem as bad as I thought it would be actually. I enjoy going to work these days coz the staff are really really nice and they're..well let's just say, have a personality close to mine. :) This time round, working in the afternoon shift is my preference due to the fact the work flow is way managable. Today was sort of testing my patience, due to 1 of the patients (being oh-so-NICE). Having a patient, you got to be patient... -.- There were tonnes of instances where I almost lost my cool. Like I said to Jijah, 'Aku jadi minah untok 5min baru tau..kene body slam nant' My cuzzins didn't call me badak when I was in primary school for nothing baby! HAHAHA. Badak.


I'm hungry now..


Ok, I just got a chocolate bar. & it's sinfully good.. *melts in my mouth not in the hand*


Hari Raya is coming and I've yet to shop for a handbag/clutch. My uncle thinks I've got too many bags and insists I use one of my old ones but my aunt came to the rescue stating. 'alaa...you kan tau pmpn suke shopping!' :) So true... And I'm contemplating to get another set of baju raya coz I'm not fully satisfied with my current piece.

I'm bored now.


Very Bored.



Time check: 12.20PM
I'm still waiting.

miss; to regret the absense or loss of

It's only been 2 days of attachments and my feet are so sore from standing and walking for 8hours. I've got blisters even when I'm wearing converse sneakers.. -.- So, today was quite hectic coz I've been assigned to be in charge of 1 patient. I can't imagine during PRCP,it will increase to 6 and 12 once I graduate. So yeah yadaa yaadaaa..... Been a while I've been posted to a female ward.. i prefer the male ward actually. No, not because I have this weird fetish for older men who makes my heart go all gooey with their toothless smiles. I just think they are much more tolerable. Ok2... Probably I do have a slight fetish for them... :) hahahaha!


It's the fasting month and I have a pile load of cravings! From cepedak goreng to bandung to nasi ambeng. I think instead of shedding the pounds, I'll gain some. :) So much for the pact I made with Nadia. I just got myself a packet of skittles and a box of Magnum ice cream. I think the Magnum commercial is so cute that I want to be treated like royalty too.. Hence, the purchase. Right now I'm thinking of what to get for my breaking of fast tomorrow.. Or will I be having it with Mr Grumps (buy me food laaaa...)hahaha. Coz the canteen will be closed by 5pm.

Shit...now I'm having a darn backache and the feet are having semut2..

I miss a bunch of people now...
- The person I had the most recent call with
- TheBestGirlfriend
- Sheila Weila
-Danialllllllll
-Family Back In scotland
-Izza
& etc...

I got to GOT TO meet up with them. But the schedule is sooo packed now. I love you guys! You know that??? *kisses and hugs!*




So let me be the one, coz I like the way you are
-The One, RJ feat Dewi