Through The Night

School reopens tomorrow and I have this mixed feelings. I want to go to school badly but at the same time, I'll miss the comfort of my bedroom and a book to read with all the spare time. Food has been like a delightful sin now, stuffing myself with snacks and meals that seem unlimited. Been trying to lose some kilos and this just happens to add more than what I lost. :S But hey, been much more appreciative of my curves.. Used to beat myself mentally about my size but with some smacks from theBestGF, KimK, Kimora and a paticular person *winks*, I am so overwhelmed with myself. I can go to the extent of looking in the mirror and gloating to myself. Hahaha!

I've reread Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn during my 2weeks of holiday.. I can never seem to get over the fact how beautiful these vampires and even Jacob Black seem to be in my imgination. If you were to ask me, I'd prefer Jacob to Edward. Coz Jacob is just so... un-ruled.








How Bout It??

Dreamcatcher.

Alas, I got to meet you, after so long.. I was delirious when we got to talk and had some laughs. Words could not describe my feelings at that time as surely it was impossible.. Then it was time for you to leave and the disappointment on my face was crystal, so you walked up behind me while I was sitting and you whispered into my ear something that made me smile ever so widely but instead of turning to give back my response, I woke up from that dream.. Wishing it was reality. Coz when you whispered to me, it felt so real. So genuine.. I guess I've missed you dearly till you often surprise me whenever I close my eyes..


Yes it's true..
I do miss you.

Silence

All of a sudden a shroud of grief and sadness overwhelms and I'm unsure why I am feeling this way right now. As if the throat is tight and a whimper pleads to escape, dying to unleash into a cry. I hate this feeling... This feeling that was supposedly to be extinct a few years back. I hate this feeling. It's haunting and finding out other facts doesn't seem to help either. This daunting stranger is back, having escaped from the back of my mind is now laughing in pure mockery while it sits in this chair in front of me. No it's not an illusion, neither is it a ghost.. This torture that faces me right now is a part of me.. And I don't know how to banish it for good.


For such a long while, this moment..
I really do feel alone.

Until The End Of Time

Previous post are the pictures taken from Melaka and Langkawi!

This holiday has been busy coz directly after my Langkawi trip, I had to pack and leave for Melaka.. but hey, it was worth it! So here's a re-cap of my trips:

Langkawi was not what I'd call a real adventure trip coz seriously, there was a whole lot of comfort.. I ws expecting tents or at least a run-down motel. hahaha.. call me sick or whatever, I wanted to be in a hard situation. But hey, it was awesome! I got acquinted with a whole lot of people and had SO MUCH FUN! Most of the time I was laughing my head off and turning red in the face. Had trekking the 1st day to the 7Wells. (it wasn't even a trek! just to go up a steep road -.-) That part I was disappointed coz I was expecting TREKKING not WALKING. 2nd day was awesome! Took a ferry ride to Coral Island (been there before) and snorkelled. Some of us felt there was no push to that and decided to pay extra to get dumped in the middle of the sea where the waves were chopping and snorkelled there. I swan 1.5km to shore! 1.5km!!! On the last day, we ventured in a Bats' Cave and mangrove swamp. The eagles there were so beautiful!
How can I not turn dark with all those activities??


Malacca was 2 days after my Langkawi trip. It was more relaxing and most of the time it was swimming or EATING. hahaha.. I had my crab! yummeh! The shopping malls weren't pulling my attention but I managed to get a top frm Mango. Had more of a family time there and we were 1 big happy family.. Loved every second of it!


Oh..during my Langkawi trip, something happened..


MY iTOUCH GOT STOLEN LA SEYY!!!!! WTH???? I was so sad but didnt want to bring down the mood of my fellow students since I was one of the student leaders.. Had to just enjoy myself and curse the person to die a thousand deaths in my thoughts.. Oh well....I'll get another one I guess? 3 more months of saving up my money.... -.- or rather I'll just get my own laptop! :)


Till here beautiful people!


xoxo,
TheGirlWhoCan'tBeBotheredAnymore

Pictures!

BROKE

I is so shagged. I look like a zombie.

I am officially broke now..so broke that if I have 5bucks now, I will declare myself rich. I need to stop buying stuff whenever I think they're cute or nice or gorgeous. I've already laid out a plan to be on shopping rehab till August or September unless there's a need to. Laugh all you want coz I, myself, think it's near impossible.. BUT when there's a will, there's a way. Or rather... 'now when you're broke, you say this...wait till you got money ahhhh!' o.O

Having 2 common test papers tmr and I feel like it's the end of the world. This is just a temporary rest..Will bury myself in books straight after this slight release of hoohaas. I still can't believe I'm in my 3rd year and it's scary that soon. I'll graduate and working life is calling me coz honestly, I'm really not looking forward to being an adult with all those money and responsibilities. No, I'm not spoilt..It's just that life is harsh, and in SG, money makes your world go round. I don't believe in the saying 'All you need is love, money comes later' Let me give you a narrow spectrum of thought on this..

BULLCRAP!

Seriously, whatthehell are you going to live on? Eat on? Sleep on? Love? I used to be one of those no-brainer thinking that love is all I need. o.O Lucky for me, reality slapped me hard on the face, gorged my eyeballs and soaked them in chlorine so that I'm able to see reality as it is. Bullocks.. Full of bullocks. Tsktsk..

Talking about love.. I seem to be in this position where it feels like an enigmatic topic. Where I find trust and rapport to be so hard to have with those new 'friends'. I'll usually shrug it off when I think it's going in a direction where the guy seem to want to get closer. I've had guys telling me I give them the cold shoulder and show no interest that I seem to be 'weird'.. Haha. I'm still straight. Just that I have boulders up..wayyyy up. Inability to let the rope go? Or just plain afraid? Or just plainly uninterested? I'm sceptical of it myself.. Don't go climbing mountains.. When you're unsure of how prepared you are.. :) Right now, I think I'm happy with the way things are..but memories still do linger and the longing is there..



I got my babies on Saturday!



This one is Pip aka the 'Brainy one'. She's super duper hyperactive and runs around for no reason at all. But I love you still you whacko!




The princess, Smartie. She LOVES to SLEEP..Wakes me up at 3 in the morning just so she can sleep on my pillows, leaving me with a bad neck ache in the morning. Pampered girl.... She loves to be cuddled. She randomly laid on Haleem's laptop and fell asleep... Like I said, she's the princess!



xoxo,
WillYouMissMeWhileI'mGone?

ButtAche

In school right now and I'm sitting on the bench in front of the bookshop.. I've been sitting for almost 3hours doing the FYP project with my group and I swear that the butt is so sore that my nerves will die and my butt will grow numb. Probably people who walk past are thing I'm one of those people who are rejected from society, sitting all alone and listening to Whitney Houston daydreaming I'm doing a duet with Taufik Batisah... HAHAHA.

Yesterday I had my driving prac AT LAST and I was all excited. Seriously, driving is a big heap of fun. To hell with the big L on the front and back of the car.. Supposedly it's not meant to let people know ur taking ur license but rather a big L to signify, 'LOSER'. Like wherever you go, people are laughing coz there's a big L on your trunk.. Whispering..' LOSER' in the back of their minds.

Ok, I just shifted my butt and it doesn't hurt that bad.. Ahhhhhhhhhhhh....

Irrelevant, probably it is.. but for me, it's a relieve... Phew!


Oh oh oh! I passed my school's practical test.. Tracheostomy dressing. To those who are wondering what the heck is that, just remain clueless. :) All's left is my common tests next week. Got the tips, got the books, got the brain..Did some revision during my breaks. Good girl I am.


Off to Langkawi next week. *does the hippo cartwheels* So on friday evening I'll be leaving SG to bask in the fun waiting in Langkawi. Will be back on the 16th and leaving once again on the 18th to Melaka. This is the busiest holiday I've EVER had. 2 trips in 2 weeks.. hurhur..


The weather has been so torturing these weeks. God.. I feel like a chicken in the oven just waiting to be roasted crusty. :S Heatwave, please do go away and let the rain pour down. I just want to play and laugh in the rain right now. I miss the rain so badly. Bloody global warming. Sheeshhh. Hot weather=people sweating=smelly and weird smells=bad odour in lecture/tutorial sessions.. Seriously, it's sooo bad I feel like throwing up and making weird and funny facial expressions.. but of course I won't...Well, not YET.


Gotta continue with FYP.. Will write again soon..



xoxo,
TheGirlWhoWearsItOnHerWristEverydayNow