Read You Like A Book

I decided to put the previous post as a draft coz I really hate it the moment I lose control. Especially losing myself to anger coz life turns ugly when surrendered to it.



Now I'm feeling so much better.. but guilt has me wrapped all around it's pinkie finger. Coz I'm finding myself drawing nearer and nearer to the line that I,myself, had designated. I won't lie and say it hasn't been heart-warming and deliriously fun but at the corner of my mind, I'm exceptionally disappointed at myself..And I wish to build this wall to enclose that part of my mind and just say 'to heck with it'. It's been months..and right now, I'm just being happy and putting up the 'Go' sign.
Just like a book wrapped in a plastic cover.... It's tempting to read your contents..







The 2nd time. Yet I don't wish to stop..

1.01pm

Started the day with an hour an a half swimming. There happened to be primary school kids who were having swimming lessons and I laughed to myself coz there they were, swimming like little fishies at such a young age when I just learnt how to swim last week. I must've looked stupid coz I had to laugh in the water coz I was alone. If I laughed out loud, people would think I'm a psychopath. So there I went smiling in the water while swimming my laps, only looking serious when I reached the end. So this will be my daily routine. Swimming in the morning. :)


The past few days,I've been tucking in bed with happy thoughts. And for what it's worth, the phonecalls I've been getting played a huge role in making me smile in my sleep. It's fun talking when the topic can go from anything to everything.. And darn my girlish giggles,I sound like a 14 year old.. but I know when to draw the line. And I'm stepping just inches behind it. Thanks for making me feel so much better about myself..


Tomorrow I'm having my driving practical and most probably meet Mizan for awhile. It's been ages since I talked to the guy. :) You were a really good friend, and I owe that to you.



xoxo,
TheGirlWhoMakesUglyTurnsDuringDriving

Floppppp

Yesterday's Flea market was a flop. The stuff sold were quite nice and CHEAP. But heck, the crowd..wait..there wasn't even a crowd... There seemed like there was hope in the first and last few hours. Some even tried on a heap of clothing before deciding to buy none. -.- I will siku you people if I see you again. Siku your eyesockets till it grinds your brain. So in the end, the staff were going to each other stalls to shop. HAHAHA. I bought a pullover sweatshirt, earrings and a red snakeskin clutch. LOVE THE SNAKESKIN! But what I loved most was this gorgeous guy vendor who had his stall set up right in front of mine. So we played the 'eye contact but when the other party notices, look away' game. Like Sheila always said, 'flirt with the eyes zimaaa!!' HAHAHA. He looked like this ex MTV veejay. Forgot his name though. Even my aunt said, 'He was definitely checking you out.' Ape lagy, this girl blushed and giggled away.. But we had a small chat at the end where he kept insisting that I buy the dress he was selling. Coz he noticed I had my eye on it but was wayyy to expensive. So the night ended with a smile from both parties. :) *sings* do..do you got a first aid kit handy... 0.o HAHAHAHA!

Went to Lau Pa Sat to have my meal for the day. Being famished like hell, I gulped down a can of coke and ordered the Sambal Pari. Niceeeee...


This girl has been quite happy.. Actually, VERY. Hopefully it'll be this way for a VERY LONG time. With loads of things to look forward to, e.g Camp, Morning Swims etc..



Late night calls and girlish giggles...
And I'm stuck with that silly grin when put to sleep. :)

Back from my driving prac and it's awesome I tell you! Yesterday was my first one and being behind the wheel was totally gerek! Plus I'm now given female instructors all the way and they've added the fact that they want to stop the stereotyping whereby women are always said to be bad drivers. That certainly was a way to start lessons with. My turnings aren't that good and I even hit a curb just now.. My instructor went all kanchiong which made me panic like hooplaaa! Today wasn't as smooth as yesterday as I wasn't allowed to be in a relaxed postion. -.- So there I was cranning my neck and eyes fixed strictly on the road.. The motorists passing by would've probably have a good laugh seeing the belolok-eyed girl's face so tensed up. Anyhows, by the next session, I'm approved to be driving on the road. First up, I gotta get my PDL!

Something got me so angered up. Not anyone else, but myself. Over the fact that I could be too emotionally involved and having to hang on the losing end. Today, I held onto the end so tightly that when the line snapped, I was caught off guard. With no apology given, I didn't blame anyone but myself for not keeping my guards up. This time, I'm already building my denfenses up. Coz you've shown no signs, so I'm preparing for another hit.



Swimming tomorrow..
And helping out my aunt at the Flea in Tanjong Pagar.
Come down guys!

20th

Over the moon. Joyful. All smiles. All comes down to the reason that I passed all my modules for end semester examination. Eventhough it isn't THAT awesome, for me, it's sort of an accomplishment as to be compared with my horrendous results last sem. So today it set my mood to an upside. So there I went, a jumpy and smiley missy, saying 'Hi!' to any stranger in the hospital. Twinkle toes. :)

I seriously loved my attachments at Ward 13. From the sarcastic yet awesome CIs to the lovable staff and not forgetting cute old uncles who calls me their 'darling'. :) Toothless and wrinkly.. Just the way I like 'em! hahaha! Hopefully, I'll do my PRCP there or get the opportunity to work there. :)

So tomorrow is my Pyaarie's birthday! Someone's getting OLDER!! 20 summore! Hopefully you'll get the happiness you truly deserve. We might be soft hearted towards the ones we love, but no matter what, you deserve the absolute best! The ripest of the apples. The biggest of the papayas! Ok, this makes no sense but at least I hope it made you smile. Enjoy tonight with your family! Coz tomorrow I'll see you in school you giler! Our motto in life, 'Mau yakin je!'.












Aniway I hate my hair now.. I thought of getting it Rebonded or chopped of to look like this.....


Yeap...My old and puuurrrfect hairstyle. So worth the money!




xoxo,
TheGirlWhoMissesSheilaSabri

Rumble

I am one happy goober due to a couple of factors right now. Firstly, I'm only left with 2 days of attachments. Secondly, I just got off the phone with TheBestGf and as per normal, we were away gossiping about boys.. Results are going to be out on Friday and strangely, I'm happy about that..I don't really know why but my guess is the wait will finally be over and there'll be no humdrum anticipation anymore. Lastly!, I had a chat with the aunt just now and we might be getting a car next year. Yeaaapppp, just for the both of us. So mainly, I'll be using it to drive to work after I graduate! Hell yeahhh~~ It'll be a 7-seater Honda Stream(2nd Hand) and what's more is that it's rims are changed to nicer ones! I seriously can't stop grinning ear to ear. But most importantly, I gotta pass my license laaa! 25th will be my first prac session and if I weren't such a hippo that I am, I'd be doing cartwheels and splits right now! HAHAHA. Me? Doing cartwheels and spilts?? YA RIGHT!!! It's like asking an elephant to do ballet ehhh~ -.-


TheBestGf just made her own blog(baru maju keppeeeeee?) hahahaha. So this way, I'll be able to get updates without having to make futile phonecalls. Battery flat laaa, ppaid low laaa...not with Danial laaa... Amek kau today I went an extra mile by calling your mom's hp. I'm such a stalker. :) but hey, I love you, Gorgeous!


So earlier I had a talk with TheBestGf, and told her about the issue of the exbf of mine and her friend, sending me msgs through Friendster. Coz these boys seriously do not know when to give up when a girl is just not interested. I even had to lie saying I'm attached. It's very irritating when the message is clearly put across and they reply, 'So cn I have your number?' -.- They are like my Mr Bed 22. Annoying to the level of making me want to siku them. Aku siku kannnggg So whatever it is, I'm just not in the mood to get to know guys..


Oh, if you're shaking your head and making that 'tsk...tsk...tsk' sound coz I changed my blogskin, again, I'm just your normal, average, fickle minded girl. Heh..


*sings* i like big butts and i cannot lie....

THAT was futile.

Soul-ed Up

2nd update of the day. Yesterday one of the cousins threw a birthday bash. Theme:Black&Gold. Amazingly even the makciks2 were going along with the theme.. One even said, 'Mcm nk lawat jenazah gitu' (followed by a hysterical laughter) I swear it was a kecorable day. Whatmore the little fatboy being all cute, amusing everyone (once again, hysterical laughter) Amek Kau! The girls as usual too endless rolls of pictures and some were quite an eyesore. HAHAHA. But hey, it was only meant for us to see, purely for our own entertainment. I ate like a pig so today I starved myself like a hippie on a hunger strike. I Need To Lose Weight!


This coming week is my last week of attachment and I can't wait coz at last I'll be on the same shifts as my pyaaries! As last, I'll be able to be there for my 2 girls coz I knw each of them are having their own problems. So hopefully, there'll be tons of laughter to trash out boys from our minds. *jiggies*

Friday, I will collect my surprise for 2 special souls.

Holidays....Here I comeeeee!!!!




I can't seem to push those moments away. Even just a scent, triggers them like a hurricane.

Aqil

So this boy became the victim of my boredom. Fake eyelashies+ eyeliner= Humour beyond measures!

Anihoos... changed my old plain blogskin to a new and brighter one!

Cheerios!

Woahhh Mama!

Johnny Bravo. A sick and self-proclaimed to be a woman's ideal man. When in reality, he's one heck of a loser who tries to woo girls by saying 'Woooaahhh Mama!' Digustingly, there are guys out there whom I can say is the realistic version of Mr Bravo. (with the exception of saying 'Woooaahh Mama!' but instead, 'Hi bleh knl2?' or 'I mishhh euuu') C'mon, the english vocab was invented for great things but you jusy had to change the words which sounds more like a retard trying to be Shakespear. -.- This is just a random thought btw, no punches meant to be thrown at anyone except the lonesome losers of this planet who dare call themselves men.


Work was exceptionally weird today. Coz I started work with a sour mood which turned into a non-stop-laughing-hit in the end. I had been asked if I am a fillipino for the 1038485493840th time today and it never stops to amuse me with the reaction 'Wahhhh!!..I die die thought you are a phillipine girl orhhh' - after being told I'm a malay singaporean. And for once I just lied to the patient saying I am a phillipino and ended up having my jaw drop down onto the floor when he talked to me in Tagalog. I simply laughed and replied 'Ahhh...yahh! Hahaha...Funny.' I bet I looked dumb. But who cares??

When it felt right and wrong at the same time... I smiled at myself thinking I was foolish to think that it had stopped. When truly, it hasn't. Under the covers in which I love.





I still hate Bed 22

Never Say Goodbye.

Gorgeoussss! I swear I've been dreaming of going shopping. With unlimited cash. If only reality were that generous to me. :)

Yesterday I finished my shift later than usual, being the good student nurse that I am, HAHA, I decided to write down notes for the case study due on next Tuesday. Mayeeyaaheee.. So after a whole 5 days of chronic standing on my poor feet, the weekends are here! These planky-duckish feet have been seeking for forgiveness and I'm pampering myself by staying at home. Tuulaaa...berat nahhh badan... Amek kauuu! Anddddd... I think the CI is a dear! HAHAHA.. *mmg nasib dier klao aku tk jatoh hati ngn dier* -as what I told Faz. And he actually makes me blush like a 16 year old when he calls us girls 'dear girls' or 'dear' instead of the normal 'stuuudennnt!!' Mymymy... where does he get those charms? HAHAHA. Faz and I actually stayed up on the phone figuring out how old he is. Sharifah already labelled him as mine. Hurhur. HAHAHA. Makkk Oiiii...!

I love working in this ward coz the old uncles are extremely adorable and get me smiling with their teethless smiles. :) Even giving me the nickname as 'bright-eyed girl' gets me all touched. Like wanting to share their biscuits and sweets when they can see that we, student nurses, are tired and had not taken our meals. How can I not fall in love with this profession? You tell me...? :)

I'm watching Rin on the Rox. And I'm soo berangan-ing to start taking vids of myself now. tsktsk.. Berangan2...


xoxoxo,
TheGirlWhoWishesToMakeADifference.

Duck Feet

The 3 weeks of attachments are here and eventhough it's only been the 2nd day, I feel lethargic. To the extreme. Trust me, there is no upside in having broad+flat feet. It's like a hybrid of a duck and plank of wood. Today was seriously busy that my feet are swollen as if it's been stung by a bee and don't get me started with the pain. Suster ngesot baru tauuu... hahahaha. *tk perlu eh zeemaaa*

Watching the Confessions of a Shopaholic, I feel as though I've been smacked in the face. I totally understand Becky when she seemed kookoo when it seemed as though the mannequins were talking to her. *It happens to me too* My friend know what I'm talking about. Sheila and Faz especially. I can't walk past a push cart or something cute.. Like now, those gladiator heels are still in my head, instructing my hands and legs to get them peerrrrttyyyy heels. So, if it goes out of hand, I need help. hahahaaha..no...seriously.

It's a pity seeing someone going through a heartache coz I've been through one. I'm trying my best to be there for you babes.. Hopefully, it'll turn out better at the end of the road ok? Whatever it is, just call me. I'll be there in a snap of your fingerssss. Loveee yaaaa!

xoxo,
TheGirlWithAShoppingOrdeal.