Blooper

It was all emo at first. But thanks to a certain some1, I got a few laughs while webcam-ing. While waiting for a phonecall, I did some click click click of my own.

All's well in Zeema land. Divalicious...

Happy New Year

With 2008 drawing to an end, the much anticipated wait for a fresh new is just a day away. As much as I would love to look back in the last year, there are parts where I wish to make ammendments. I won't go making all those extravagant resolutions but instead, the parts and parcels of 2008 which I've yet to improve myself on. Funny how it was yesterday when Lily (my awesome hairdresser) called me up to wish me a happy new year, brought up the part about love. She said she'd hook me up with one of her good-looking clients. Haha. Thank you Lily, but like u suggested, this time, I'll get a more permanent guy. ;)

So much about love, inner strength is one other thing. I know I might seem to go through the hoohaas in life without much hassle. This time to make it worthwhile, I'll make the rules now. Funny how it is to say, 'I'm the Ring Leader now'.

2009 is one year where I'll make decisions all over again but one thing is surely a priority which is to embrace myself with love from those I hold close. Friends and especially my beloved family. So till 2009 makes its debut, I'm going to have a rocking sleepover tomorrow. CHEERIO!

Days turn to weeks..
Weeks turn to months..
Months to years.....
Yet those beautiful memories linger so fresh in my mind as if it were yesterday..
Never will I forget the gestures, words nor happiness.
For you were truly my best.

Sometimes in the midst of lonliness, memories flood in..
And I can never get over the fact that I've missed you.
After all these while...

New Moon

My Sony Erisson C902 went dead on me. -.- I think I'm cursed with handphones. I just got it like a few months back and now it's lifeless. Even with my dad's sexy Gold Motorola Razor, the songs in my C902 is the one that I want.. *cries like a whimp*

It's been a long while since I talked to my family over in Scotland and here I am chatting with my baby sisters. Christmas is in 2 days and I bet they're getting heaps of presents. Wish I was there to play in the snow again. (partly coz my 1st experience was a big hoohaa, in a funny way) Hopefully, I'll get to go to Aberdeen after my diploma and who knows? Milan perhaps? *insert big smiley face* I miss you guys...



So, I've been thinking.. There are many future plans I've already laid out. Like my license and after that, a go for my certificate in make-up. There is still one particular, which is writing. I'm not sure how to polish my writing skills to something much more useful. Right now, I'm considering free lance and I've already sent a few writings/articles out. Reader's digest is pending for my next write-up. At least when I've graduated, I'll be geared with so much.. What more, I've slipped the opportunity to get that interview to go to Australia for my attachments. It was rather a last minute recommendation from one of my fav lecturers. -.-

I'm deliriously over the moon and even pluto which cannot even be seen that it's considered not a part of the known planets...Becauseee... I got myself New Moon. Yeap, the continuation of Twilight. Tomorrow hopefully I'll get myself the other 2 books. Nerd-ly delicious....

Zeema the Divaa~

Vain Mama

Bored on a Saturday? I take pictures....

Hahaha..

I'm a sad sad cow...

You change your mind like a girl changes clothes...

So speak correctly.

Coz I know you're no good for me.

Stop wasting my time and kindly go towards the exit. Thank you.

Oh! Just to snap you back to reality, I lied. Yes I did.

Pictures of last weekend:

The Guy Victim

Esah and Imah *hahaha* immitating Korean poses.

Found this in Syarifah's profile. I look so scared. *hahaha*

Pokes Eyes

I love the feeling of having music blasting away in my ears while going out. In a weird way, it gives a reassuring confidence to walk down that street. *strutting her stuff la konon2* hahaha. Usually without it, I'd have my head hung low and stare at the concrete ground.

Met up with Jijah earlier for our theory practise. I passed only at booklet 3 & 4 but it was all good. Plus point went to the cute boy sitting next to me. Major rock bottom hit was, I was looking for a keyboard and a mouse when it was touchscreen. -_- So with the boy looking amused, I flashed a 'kau nk ktawe kt aku eh setan' smile. I'm naively dumb that way.

Took the bus home and I just couldn't wait to get back home and read my book. *im such a nerd that way* Fried some chicken and cleaned the house up..yaadaa yaaddaa yaaddaa...

To my pyaarie, Faziellah, if you happen to read this.. Jijah and I will always be right here for you ok? Just like the times when either of us had hardship.. You were there when I needed a shoulder to cry on. so I won't let you even think you're alone in this. I'll even rob a bank for you.. That's how much I love the both of you guys. =) KARAOKE?? hahahha...

Ignore my previous post. Coz I won't let a small thing mess up my day.

She's the Ring Leader.

Take Control

Just like a cold zephyr, it hits me hard.. I feel like curling up in one corner. Scared. Very, terribly scared. I'm only 19 and it feels like my age has been stretched 10years further. Like I'm 29, and decisions are made without me knowing and time's being rushed. My heart's pounding like never before... I feel like breaking down. Mashed into pieces... Why didn't I forsee this? I'm 19.... Just 19...

Come take me away...
To somewhere safe. Please.

Boy, Oh Boy...

I'm seriously amused by the aunts' reactions. I have no objections though.. For the past choices I've made have been hands down, how do I put it... inappropriate. Proves these 'fairygodparents' want to work their magic.. But still, I'll have the last say...

I've already applied for my license and BTT's up next month. Going over for the classes tomorrow with my pyaarie, Jijah... Miss her like HOOHAA. hahahha...

Going over to be the babysitter.. here we go again~

Make It Real For Me

So, here are the holidays and all I'm booked for is a karaoke session with my beloved cousins. Speaking of which,I met them during the weekends and it was fun. Laughed eventhough my cough and asthma was still bad. Negativity aside, I had loads of fun swinging my hair and being 'miang' with the girls. Hahaha. Jabbar must've enjoyed to be surrounded by a circle of girls. Lucky you.

Shopped at Esprit in Vivo after that.. Bumped into my meenachi Ushalini there. Been bumping into her quite often these days, not that I'm complaining of course. I've always thought of her as one of the pretty girls. :) Bought a jacket, top and wallet which of course burned my ka-ching in the bank account. That was the day I forgo to even grimaceat the sight of the numbers on the price tag. Once a year eyy? Uhuh~~~ Met my lovely, Aqil, too! That air or immaculate innocence simply throws me off my balance. Truly, he makes the littlest things seem so extravagant. Like I said, he means the world.

Been watching Britnet Spears's documentary and I've been her loyal fan since the age of nine. That counts as a decade now. In every hardship, she's always made a poised comeback. I don't mean those 'Queen drinking tea' kind of poise, but rather a kind of confidence that exudes such inspiration. She's gone through hell and back, but still Ms Britney is up on her 2 strong feet. Hats off to you Ms Britney.

I feel like going to somewhere isolated and bare... Just to talk and clear some mind space.. So anyone out there who knows a good location, do bring me there. And just be my friend to listen...

You, out there...
Please make it real for me....

I am so psyched coz I'll be having a reunion with this lovely ladies who I call cousins. Truly they make my life filled with sunshine rays when the earth suddenly decides to take its toll on me. I LOVE you guys...

Hari Raya Haji Prayers at Masjid Ahmad. The calmness and serenity was a bliss...

Zeeemmaaaa and telekonggg.. with PINK flowers. Shocking? Especially the PINK. ;)

Sheikh Aqil Ferranto. HAHAHA. (ignore the sheikh)

You can't blame mefor loving this cute boy too much. He means the world.

Oh and this adorable one? Ilman Yaqin is the name.

Mama, I got a needle stick injury... Look at that pouty face. Menyampah. HAHAHA.

I tend to get selfish with the things bought from my mom. Like even my PINK-flowered telekong. I get all fussed up. I just want them to be between me and Mama. I love you, you WONDERFUL woman...

Like Mom

I can make a rough conclusion that my body immune system sucks big time. Hah. Fell sick once again when I've just recovered a few weeks back. My aunt claims that I sound exactly like my Mama with my 'blocked-nose' voice. I'll take that as a compliment anyhow. I was feeling like taking an MC today from attachments but decided working on a Saturday is not worth the 1 day luxury. So mask-ed day it was for me. Tomorrow will be the last day and I'm ecstatic over my 3 week holiday!

Bumped into Din yesterday on the bus and it was nice to see an old classmate. Looking good though. Hahaha.. Sheila, better not tell him eh...Went home with Mizan during one of my night shifts since he was in Queensway and updated each other on random stuffs. I still owe that bugger a day out and movies. :S My friend who blackmails. Hah.

I dreamt about you yesterday and it was nice to see you again, even in a dream. It seemed both realistic and surreal but it was nice. To actually have you around even for awhile and not let time take charge. To deny all that I know that is true.. Even for that short period, I was on cloud 9.

Hari Raya Haji =)

I miss my BestGirlFriend

Her Lazy Morning

I woke up feeling VERY lazy to even get off my bed and pulled my loved blanket over my head wishing the time would just stop and let me sleep longer. (eventhough I've already had the luxurious 12 hours in zeemaland) I'm still in my PJs(teddy bear summore) and I'm very reluctant to go for my attachment. I seemed very positive a few days back but then after reality hit my head with a buffalo. 8 hours of standing.. 0_0 The patients I love but the standing I hate.. I had this pictured in my head while I was in primary school... that the future will have this device where we'd all have this 'transportation device' where no walking is to be done only hovering with this particular device.. I was full of imagination and still am. I'm a kid at heart. VERY much still. :)

Oh well..time to get ready and pamper my feet before their torture later on. I'm sorry babies, mami's gotta work. AND shed some pounds. haha. Crazy diet... Ergh..

You're immaculately suave.. And it's gotten my attention. ;)

*smirks*

If the feet could talk, they would be screaming right now. Attachments has got my feet all achy and blister-y. Gosh. Up to the extent I got myself a new pair of converse sneakers to replace my useless crocs. (and supposedly the crocs cost more) Anyhows, the past 2 days in the ward is bearable although the people could be a bit more welcoming. *rolls eyes* Whatever, the patients are so cute and they simply make it worth the constant sighing and sarcastic comments from some people. But the patients aren't the only ones who are cute... *grins*


Being infatuated doesn't necessary mean anything, but it sure builds up that fluttery feeling in the pit of the stomach. Nope, this is temporary and I sure do mean it coz having something serious is not on the agenda right now. Still, the eyes tend to look while the mind goes drooling. Haha.. Especially my Twilight leading man. Gosh he's one hot vampire. It's like his eyes simply gets the corner of my mouth curving up and I wish to have him so much. haha. I've always digged stars who play as vamps.



















Robert Pattinson. You're a hottie.